I started seeing a therapist counselor during the COVID-19 pandemic.
One of the big goals during my sessions was figuring out how to be more in tune with myself — like gauging anxiety and depression. The result of all those telehealth calls and all the exercises I went through was reorienting myself towards a direction that caters to me the most. And to keep myself going in a direction I was truly happy with, I made myself a mantra that I wake up to every day when I look at my workload.
“If it strengthens or challenges my foundations, allows me to discover new horizons, contributes to my autonomy or caters to my want of exploration, then that opportunity is mine to take.”
And around that time, I was also in a transitional period — my circle of friends were changing, I ended up moving away from NYC, and I suddenly found myself going headfirst into my own projects. And as everything around me (that was out of my hands) was in flux, I looked inward. I needed something that I could do that not only let me reconnect with myself, but also checked my boxes so I could have less of a hard time weathering all of the other changes. That’s where the Final Fantasy franchise — the games that inspired me to make the final decision to pursue music as a career — came into play. And to double down on it…
I decided to start streaming on Twitch exactly a year ago with a goal in mind.
I wanted to document my process of playing through all of the mainline Final Fantasy games for (essentially) the first time. Never in my wildest dreams did I think I would fall this hard into something I started merely on what felt like a whim, but I don’t regret a single bit of it. Over the past year I’ve built something that I’m completely proud of, and I’m incredibly thankful to every single one of you who checked out the stream/followed/subscribed. I wish I could be celebrating with a livestream on this special day, but THREE SHOWS (😬) require all of my attention at the time I’m making this post! So, I hope that this will do for right now. (I’ll come up with something epic once everything dies down for me, though!)
Again — thank you all. Here’s to growth, new directions, and looking forward.